Rant #11

One of the thing that I find as hard to
understand is man.
Gosh! they are just so complicated
and complex creature.

I don't have many male friends
cos I find that its more comfortable to
have friend with the same gander as I am.
Plus, I'm from an all-girls school, so of course
most of my friends are female.
Not that I'm feminist. No guys.

Back in my home, we only have 3 males
in the house. Abah, Amir and Ikmal.

To be honest, I rarely understand abah.
He's not that responsive to me.
Idk why. Maybe because I'm not that responsive
to him as well kot.
I always have an "inferior" feeling whenever
I am suggesting something to him.
I have the feeling like he might not like the idea and
somehow will ignore it.
I don't know why la. (repetition identified!)
Maybe due to lack of communication from the start.
Not his fault la. My fault sebab everytime call rumah
bukan nak bercakap dengan abah.
Mak juga yang dicari.

He's the type that would sit back and keep quiet
for a while before he decides on some issues.
I like that quality in him cos it shows that he's
a good leader to the family. Berfikiran jauh. Hehe.

As for Amir and Ikmal, these two are my younger brothers.
These two guys, I don't understand them at all.
I can't even guess what's in their head.
I'm not sure if distance should take the blame.
Communicating with kak chik and farha are easier
than with these two boys.

I don't know whether I should scold them for their
naughtiness or just take it as a joke.
Since they are boys, whenever something happen
I always give myself an excuse that the fact that they are male,
so they different way of thinking than us the girls.

So I end up kesian nak marah-marah them or being a kepoci
asking a lot of questions even I have so many to ask actually.
I'm afraid they would feel uncomfortable and think
that I'm such a nuisance to them.
I hate being the typical woman who question a lot
and want to know everything.
But sometimes I do question them jugak.
Just for fun. Who else can I annoyed if its not my
own siblings kan. Haha.

Somehow I love Amir the most. (Ikmal as well)
His jokes always made my day.
There's one person here who always remind me of Amir.
But no I don't love him la. Haha.
It's just that you make me feel happy with your jokes.
That's all.

Motif tulis panjang-panjang?
Sebab rindu la. What else could it be.
July come faster.
I miss home.