Are you okay?

Some people asked me this question quite a lot this past few days,
which is...

So here are some of my answers :

1. OK. (muka ketat)
this kind of okay means i'm NOT okay at all. i need time on my own

so just stay away from me for a while

or i'll cry like crazy in front of you. (manja!)

2. OK. (muka senyum x ikhlas)

it means im not so okay to talk to you but yeah thanks for asking.

3. OK...KOT

it means im still fighting against myself to not to be sad anymore
but not sure whether im succeed or not.

4. OK JE...DON'T WORRY :)

this okay means im good.

i can handle my feeling well and yes! thanks for asking.

5. :)
i dunno how to answer you..will you accept my

not-so-ikhlas-senyum-actually 

(cuz im still grieving <--mcm ada org mati pulak)

note 1 : thanks cik anis sbb rajin bertanya.. i lapt u :)

Salah sangka

You had misunderstood me..big time!
Its hard i guess to understand me.
I need  something else.
But since nobody ever ask
then i dont think its necessary to tell
cuz i dont think you wanna know.
Dang!

make me strong!

Somebody do care

Grateful to know that somebody do care.
At least i have someone i can always rely on.
No matter it is day or night.
Whether its sunny or rain.
There's no other thing i would ask in this world
other than God's blessing towards you.
-->umi, abah and my family

Such a horrible daughter i am
always being the black-sheep in the family.
The one that make you worry the most.
You said that its okay..but who knows
deep inside we're sharing the same pain.

Im sorry cuz i might not be able to fulfill
my promise towards you.

Its not that i'm giving up.
Its just that i'm not as strong as you.
I'm fragile.
I always need someone beside me
even for the slightest thing to do.


note 1 : i have heart to be mend..anyone?

Its tomorrow

Esok Khamis.
Mungkin hari ni hari last boleh bergurau senda
sebab esok maybe dah boleh tahu result exam semalam.

Orang duk pesan suh doa banyak-banyak.
So what i pray is.. i hope that Allah grant the prayers made by you.
Yes you! the one that pray for me.

If what im doing now is something beneficial for my life
in this dunya and hereafter, i pray that He'll ease my path.
But if something bad happen,
i hope that im strong enough to face it.
I need to be really really strong.


note 1 : mana janji-janji manis nak jadi optimis ni?? *dush2*

Rant #3

The clueless me is going to have
an exam on this 20th of Dec.

Thinking too much about the same thing
for a long period of time is something yang
menyerabutkan otak yang dah sedia ada serabai
dan berselirat dengan macam-macam hal ni.
KOMPLEKS!
Life and trouble come in one package.

Should train myself to be more positive
and optimist in everything i do.
=.='
Moje sdrce, sila bertabah!

Should I?

Kalau ikut kata benz,
"we should start the day with something sweet and end with something sweeter."
But if i start the day with something bad, should i end with something bitter?

The thing is, kalau kita duk depend kat manusia
memang tak akan satisfied sampai bila-bila.
That's why la kawan matluthfi cakap kita kena bergantung pada Yg Tidak Mati
sbb once dah letakkan pergantungan pada yang Esa
insyaallah He Wont let us down kan?

Sorry to say but you had disappointed me.
Big time.
It's okay then since it's not the first time after all.
I'm used to be ignored by people anyway.
Many times.
I'm strong okay!
So should i ignore you after this?

Mission

Salam.
Nervous tak kalau kena masak banyak-banyak
untuk nak jual kat orang ramai?
Of  course la nervous.
Masak nasi kerabu tu pernah la buat dua tiga kali kat sini.
Tapi kalau nak jual untuk satu lokaliti,
hati tiba2 bermonolog 'boleh ke aku jual ni? laku ke tak ni'

Nak2 pulak kena buat solok lada
yang sepanjang hidup dah dekat dua dekad ni
tak pernah nak amek tahu cara nak buat solok tu
unless la dah nampak ada benda tu atas meja and tinggal makan je.

Bila dah testing2 buat aritu,
not bad la untuk first timer macam aku ni
banyak lagi kena belajar
nak buat tu pon banyak kali gle call mak and nenek tanya resepi.

Then semalam bila jual,
rasa berbaur kat dalam liver,
macam mana la rasa benda ni nanti bila diorang rasa nanti
-___-

Lagi satu, bestnya kawan-kawan kat sini.
I like it when you girls still willing to help me
even takde lansung bahagian untung tu masuk poket kita semua.
kira macam buat keje amal la ni.
Terima kasih sbb sanggup bersama-sama
memenatkan diri with me and my roomate.
Jasamu dikenang ^_^



note 1: it's December guys..need to start studying really2 hard.

note 2: ada orang tanya dalam nasi kerabu ada ikan bilis x? kalau ada jangan bubuh and i laughed really hard for that...sorry a lot ya.

Rant #2

Tiba-tiba sedih bila ingat balik benda
yang dah jadi dan tak patut dikenang

I wish i could stay strong
at least in front of everybody
who love me.

Wahai hati,
sila jangan patah semangat
jangan cepat putus asa
awak bukan manja!
awak boleh hadapi benda ni sebab
awak ada mereka dan Dia.

Tak perasan ke?

Saya merajuk dengan awak
awak tak perasan ke?
sampainya hatimu.
T_T

merajuk lagi untuk minggu kedua.

Great people

Last two week was totally awesome for me.
Rasa diri sangat-sangat bertuah.
Surrounded by people who care for each other,
not selfish, treating you like your existence was
worthwhile known by them and most importantly
SUPPORTIVE toward your friends.


Seriously, all your prayers meant a lot to me.
Sangat-sangat tersentuh dengan setiap ucapan
'GOOD LUCK' and all the support you gave me.
Only Allah will be able to repay all your kindness toward me.
Feel like all i do is receiving and not giving anything :(


But somehow i believe that everything happened for a reason.
If things didn't went well according to our will,
I'm sure He had Planned something else for me.
Coz He Gave us what we need, not what we want.


You girls are GREAT!!!
Kalau panjang umur, ada rezeki kita jumpa lagi.
(in case if something bad happen,
this might be a goodbye msg for you)

Not to forget how lucky am i to have
such an understanding and supportive family.
May Allah bless you all.



Lastly, this one was taken from one of my friend's status in facebook
I know that He loves me no matter what happen.
Be strong Azira!

I asked Allah for strength & Allah gave me difficulties to make me strong, 

I asked Allah for wisdom & Allah gave me problems to solve, 

 I asked Allah for courage & Allah gave me obstacles to overcome, 

I asked Allah for love & Allah gave me troubled people to help, 

I asked Allah for favours & Allah gave me opportunities. 

 Maybe I received nothing I wanted, but I received everything that I needed. 

That shows how Allah Loves you and care about you. 

card from supi and ama, choc from beloved roommate :)

tiramisu from sweetie senior
(this one yg paling terharu)
^_^

say alhamdulillah

Lets all say alhamdulillah for everything.
Untuk segala nikmat dah pemberian.
Untuk segala keperitan dan kesusahan.
Alhamdulillah untuk segalanya.
Lets pray for a better future.

IMY

Im searching for a girl named
NURHANISHAZIRAHBINTIMUSTAPHA!
can someone tell me where is she???
nak mention nama dia tak ada twitter,
hantar PM x reply,
wrote on your wall but no reply either.
or should i call you?
but im afraid you are busy...
hey wait..are you mad at me or what?

i hope she still live in this super huge humongous
milky way galaxy,
to be precise on a planet called earth =_='
cuz if you still do
please..
do notice that someone is searching for you
and she's been missing you like crazy.


note 1 : maybe you are busy.

#Myths

1. GARANG
seriously i'm tired of being called garang, sombong
or whatsoever yg sama waktu dengannya.
i'm not the kind that smile or talk to anybody freely
especially the one that i knew only for few days

truth :
im the one yang lambat nak mesra dengan orang.
(a.k.a not friendly)
sangat PENYEGAN sebenarnya.
it took me a long time to be comfortable with people.
and naturally my face memang look garang when im not smiling
so should i undergo plastic surgery?
im not the manis-manis type like preety zinta or
siti nurhaliza.


2. SOMBONG
sebab selalu jalan tak tengok kiri kanan
dah kena panggil macam tu

truth:
im not the talkative type.
i speak freely to someone im comfortable with
someone called close friend and my family.
even being with them, most of the time
i prefer to be the listener.


3. SINIS
kalau maria elena suka buat gaya gedik-gedik tu,
i prefer to be cynical.
this one is true.
i just love being cynical ^^
although sometime its unintentionally.
(siap ada facial expression lagi)
i don't remember when it actually started.
probably during my secondary school days.

truth:
im only being cynical with my close friends
really really close one..not to all people..hihi








can't you just accept the way people live?

Makan je keje

This week will be the makan-makan week.
Why? because this sabtu ada ala2 "canteen day".
So some of us gonna bake and cook then sell it to others.
Sound really fun since it involve
all students here including non-Malaysian.
Really wish to eat nasi lemak and
cakes baked by our seniors :)
(lama gile xmakan nasi lemak)
Heard that some of other senior gonna cook
some Indian meal, lasagna, kuih2 tradisional Melayu,
cakes, tuna fish cutlets (i have no idea what is this)
and so on.

And on Sunday, we also gonna have
some makan2 with my usrahmate.
Last usrah for this semester.
After this maybe join yg baru pulak kot.
So benda wajib masa akhir usrah adalah MAKAN time ^_^
Anticipating nak rasa menu orang lain.hihi
As for me, disebabkan kerajinan yang amat2 sangat,
i volunteered myself (with my roommate actually)
to prepare the snakes!
Simple kan? haha


note 1 : i have exam next 2 week wish me luck :D

Rant.

i wish life is not that hard
i wish you will always there beside me
to share your strength with me

somehow
i wish im stronger
then i wont depend on you  all the time

life sure is hard.
especially during the day
when you are not around

im kinda lost
alone
nowhere to go
nobody to speak
everybody is busy

i guess
maybe im too pessimist with my life.
i hate this feeling!



note 1 : i know i have Him

I've been...

Currently I've been reading a few blogs belong to doctors.
Ada yg comel, ada yg serius and ada yg bersahaja.
Learn so many things from their writing.
Although still a student tp dah rasa
the tense of becoming a doctor.

But from my observation,
all should be fine if  you had set your mind
from the beginning that medicine is NOT an easy field.
(sila sentiasa betulkan niat >.<')
So you will force yourself to strive harder
in future. Especially in your studies.



note 1: i got histology test tomorrow. T_T

note 2: big task awaits this weekend and i wish everything gonna be fine.

note 3: i hope success is mine in the next exam. cuak giler!

My first puncture.

Done with the test! *phew*
I don't know how the result will be but
the sure thing is i had done my part so
i leave the rest for Him to decide.

One more thing,
today is my first time doing venepuncture to my friend and yes!
i'm so excited finally i can do it  ^_^
I begin everything with al-fatihah but
my friend said my hand still shaking.
For me, what matter the most is when the one that i inject said that
she didn't feel much pain when i 'cucuk' her.
I was so happy to hear that cuz
that means my puncture was quite a success,
and the needle move straight away into the vein.
And i manage to collect about 2 ml of her blood this morning.
(the blood will be used for physiology experiment)

note 1 : i got biochemistry test tomorrow. :(
             (the teacher sure like to test us)

note 2 : i love neuroanatomy now :)
             today's practical was so interesting
             although a lot to read, remember and digest but
             it really attract my attention! ^_^

Pernah tak?

Do you ever feel like
''DAMN!!! asal la ko tak baca elok-elok before masuk kelas..
kan dah kena denda!"
(Haa..kan dah banyak tanda seru.)
Itu menunjukkan betapa menyesalnya tak
revise balik apa yg lecture dah ajar before ni.

Pernah tak kena halau dari kelas sebab tak dapat
jawab test dengan baik?
Saya tak pernah and hari ni dah berjaya catat
sejarah kena halau!
Okay maybe the word halau agak kasar
tapi memang tu la yang jadi.
Today is only Monday and the first
class of the week pulak tu.
Apa korang rasa bila kena macam tu?

Of course la GERAM dengan diri sendiri sebab
ketidakpandaian dalam megurus masa dengan efficient
untuk revise balik topic before ni.
T____T

Feel like dah jadi orang paling tak pandai ever kat dunia ni.
Waaaaaaaaa...saya stress!!!


note 1: esok credit test neuranatomy but i still didn't finish studying T_T

note 2: i miss my sis.

Random thought

Next week will be hilarious.
Almost everyday got tests.
Hope everybody gonna be fine.
I love my friends here.
My world would be meaningless without them
in my circle of life.
Again, losing people you love is awfully painful.
Especially when the person is someone close to you
and you have been together for quite sometime.
(ini bukan status frust dengan "gewe")
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*sambung study*

Losing you.

You are great.
I hope we will have the chance to meet again in future.
It will be weird without you here.Seriously!
Be strong.
I know you are.
Allah Loves you.
Thats for sure.
T__T

Clumsy!

Being clumsy for the past few days dah macam isi dgn kuku dah dengan aku.
Hilang benda tu, lupa benda ni, cari benda tu, buat benda ni..semua serba tak kena.

Contohnya hari ni, pagi-pagi lagi bersiap dengan semangat berkobar-kobar  nak gi faculty sbb nak print a few things and most importantly nak print jadual blaja untuk next semester.
Lepas 3 komputer aku try tp still x boleh nak log in then aku amek decision untuk balik je.
Then bila sampai bilik aku terus log in aku punya portal..
manalah tahu aku ada masalah kt portal sampai x boleh nak log in kt faculty.

Bila dah masukkan username, sekali zapp terlintas kat otak aku..ni bukan username yang aku masukkan kt komputer kt faculty tadi.
OMG! rasa diri tersangat sengal sebab boleh pulak terlupa mana satu username aku.
Yg aku masukkan tadi tu nombor isic card aku.
Tetiba rasa nak lempang diri laju-laju sebab baru je tinggal faculty 2 bulan dah lupa semua benda.

SEBAL DENGAN DIRI SENDIRI!!!

I miss these girls!

Okay thanks! you girls successfully made me jealous yg teramat sangat!
Didn't have the chance to meet all of you during the last semester break.
Only He Knows how TERKILAN  i am.
However its good to see that you still stay the same like i used to know you before.

Love from Czech Rep. ^____^

Missing DOMO!

menyesal xbawak DOMO datang sini

 DOMO please don't miss me..and try to live well until i come back okay!don't scared to be alone ^^

Balik..

Currently in Dubai right now. Transit kat sini for about 10 hours. Along the journey from Prague-Dubai tadi i kept thinking about my parents.

I wish one day they will have the chance to feel what i feel right now. The feeling of traveling around the world. The excitement of going somewhere you never been there before and the experience you'll have in that place. How i wish they are besides me right now. (^_^)

Still got about 8 hours before our flight to Malaysia is scheduled. Its a long journey yet interesting. Today i learn  the basic things that you need to do before board to the plane (sorry for being noob..x biasa naik airplane okay). Confusing jugak nak gi ke satu2 tempat tu. Punyala besar airport ni sampai2 boleh sesat kalau x alert. Nasib baik balik dgn senior kalo x memang pening2 lalat jugak la nak sampai Dubai ni.

So far the journey was okay (xde lagi hilang fon mcm ms mula2 sampai czech dulu) and hope that everything gonna be fine until kaki ini mencecah bumi kelantan tercinta (excited!)

Semester wrap up

Alhamdulillah today i had finished all the paper that should be completed in this semester.(finally) Praise be upon Him because without Him i'll never had the strength to go through all the exam.

So now i think is the most suitable time to give 100% attention toward ticket thingy now.  But before that, here some wrap up about the subjects that i had took so far in my first year.

ANATOMY

• this subject is banyak-kena-hafal-and-tahu , semakin baca rasa mcm makin banyak pulak tak tahu...basicly you need to know ALL about your precious body. When i said "all" i really mean it. Even the smallest blood vessels! But nevertheless i enjoyed studying this subject so much. It makes me appreciate my body more and also make me realize that Allah is just so Great that no other god, only Him could have created such a great perfect human body. 

BIOLOGY

• This is one of my favourite subject since my secondary school except when it comes to experiment. I always got dizzy watching all those sometimes-extremely-minute-tiny-little-specimen during the winter semester. But summer semester seems better. I like the immune system topic the most. (probably because i spent a really really long time to study only that topic.)

BIOPHYSICS

•  Honestly this is the subject that will easily make me fall asleep when i study it (sometimes during lectures as well) but i still found something interesting in this subject, especially when it comes to ECG and how our body is working in "physics way" ---------->the equations and the laws that applied to it is enough for me to fall asleep as soon as i open the lecture notes =.='

CHEMISTRY

• This subject is for the winter term only. Again chemistry is basically is the continuation of the one you had learn during your secondary school but obviously its deeper and the exam was tough. Many people still didn't pass this paper and need to do it in this summer semester examination period (obviously you need to finish all the paper before the new term begin but the problem is not so many dates are available during summer exam period so you need to be hurry) 

So i guess that's it..the major papers that you need to finish before you can say Hi to Malaysia and Bye-bye to Olomouc.

p/s: cant wait to go home \(^__^)/

Mixed Feeling

Today i got anatomy exam and as i had predicted last night, i failed. Nak kata sedih tu memang la sedih (tipu giler kalau x sedih) but somehow feel bless gak la sbb actually memang tak habis baca pon.

Sekarang ni musim semua orang nak start balik tanah melayu dah. Nanti hari sabtu ni my roomate pun dah start nak berangkat balik dah. MIXED FEELING!

Hepi for her coz she had finished all the papers but at the same time quite upset coz later i'll be left alone.
Only He knows how boring it is to be left alone in this small room. Still got 3 papers left. But I hope I can extend one of the paper to the next semester coz i dont think i'll be able to prepare for the test in a short time  plus i think there will be no date available in July. Or else i need to come earlier than anyone else to settle my exam. Quite tough kan? (well at least i do think so)

Disamping cuak dgn exam yg mcm pernah nak habis ni, somehow feel a little bit excited coz its the end of June now. It means that summer holiday is just around the corner. (although tiket pun x beli lagi but still feel excited).


I'm sick of being far away from my beloved people in my home. Plus, lagi sakit jiwa kalau tgk org duk post gambar makanan sedap2 kat fb tu. Hello! dont ue guys know im craving for those foods like crazy for ages ago =.='' Seriously balik rumah ni memang nak mintak macam2 kat umi (sori umi..huhu)


So bersabarlah wahai cik azira ye! everything gonna be fine eventually..never lose hope to what He had set to ue..ur path might be different from anyone else but finally we will achieve the same goal right... (^__^)
(pujuk diri sendiri)

Alhamdulillah

Allhamdulillah i passed with my second paper today --->BIOPHYSICS
Allah really is the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful. He let me passed even there's still a lot that i don't know and cover before the exam. ALHAMDULILLAH! THANK YOU ALLAH. He knows what the best for us coz He is the best Planner ever in the whole universe. I felt very lucky today coz i'm one of the 3 candidates that passed since overall there are about 10 candidates  today. Alhamdulillah ^__^

I remembered one of the status made by one of my senior after he was done with his exam,

"NIKMAT SEKECIL INI KU RASAKAN SANGAT SANGAT BESAR, ENTAH BAGAIMANA NIKMAT SYURGA-MU YA ALLAH"

Nicely quoted..(^__^)

p/s: two down, three to go

I passed

Today alhamdulillah I passed my first paper---> BIOLOGY

The first two question was quite easy and alhamdulillah i manage to write and present it well but thats not the thing that i want to stress out here. Not the questions but the result.  

Only God knows how nervous i am during the exam...he give me a very simple question but  i didn't managed to answer it well although i had revised that topic quiet a lot before the test. Well maybe this is so called 'qada dan qadar' that Allah had already arranged for me. ---> so be proud of yourself girl..you had passed the test! ^_^

I read an article and learnt something from it.

1. what you learnt is not to be forget
2. Allah had set different path for every human being..some people were so damn genius! they understand it immediately after they read it but some people are vice versa--->i'm one of the"vice versa" people 

So my conclusion is, after each exam open your heart to accept any kind of result...either you pass or fail. Those people (i'm referring to the people in the article) who are doing such ( i would say) a  noble job are having much difficulties to complete their task. --->apalagi diriku yang kerdil ini yg hanya belajar ilmu duniawi semata-mata



p/s this entry was posted to cheer up myself since i din't manage to achieve my target

ACCEPT YOUR RESULT GIRL..FELL BLESS WITH IT (^_^)

tension ke?

Exam..

study week yg sgt2 menguji kesabarn thp petala ke 8...

selalu lapar sbb selalu sgt malas masak...

rasa nak nangis je spjg masa tgk org lain study bagai nak rak tp diri sdiri study tah kemana...

homesick yg amat
(=.=')

wahai diri,

sabarrrrr....astargfirullah hal 'azim

jgn duk asyik merungut je...those complaints wont bring you anywhere dear ^^

mana ada benda yg senang kt dunia ni...unless ue are in Heaven rite now

"hidup penuh pengorbanan..pengorbanan perlukan perjuangan..perjuangan perlukan ketabahan..ketabahan perlukan  keyakinan..kayakinan pula menentukan kejayaan..dan kejayaanlah yg menentukan kebahagiaan"

okay...now i'm better ^^

i want to be strong too

Last night one of my friend's grandpa passed away.
(Al-fatihah)
I was quite touched by her action when she know about the news. I asked her does she's okay or not right after i know the news. She was really positive! she said "setiap yg hidup pasti akan mati."
Subhanallah..How i wish someday i can become that kind of person.A person with a strong heart.

Dah la dua tiga hari before ni selalu je ingat kt arwah atuk. Tak sabar nak balik Malaysia coz the first thing that i want to do is to visit my grandpa's grave. Dah lama dah pendam hasrat ni. Hope everything gonna be fine sepanjang musim exam ni so baru la bole balik Malaysia dgn senang hati.

Exam mode

Finally after such a busy month i'm able to write something.

Last month was such a hectic month. Almost every weekend there's always some activities to do..*phew*

It's May now and there's nothing else in my mind right now except 2 major things which is EXAM and MALAYSIA! Only God know how much i miss my home right now..how i wish that i can just go home straight away without any exam. 

But somehow of course its just in my dream lah because the reality is nothing is easy in our life. Just remembered that one of my senior said that "nothing is easy in this world..no one get all what she/he want...we must go through pain before we get the reward and the same thing goes to the heaven and hell. In order to be placed in heaven, we must go through a lot of pain, because heaven is a sweet reward for us. (click here)

so AZIRA!!! 

BE STRONG..xlama dah nak abes first year ni..(^__^)V

Miluju tě

I'm totally grateful to have you..
someone who really understand me,
always there for everything, every time, and everywhere..
you have the most comforting words in the world..


even..
i'm not always there for you..
sometimes  i ignore you,
sometimes say "no" to what your words..


but..
regardless of what i did and what i said
you are still here by my side,
thats why i'm grateful to have you
MOM!

nothing impossible

Now i realize that there is nothing impossible in this world (baru nak sedar ke?? dush2)
Recently, it is winter here. I got a lot of new experiences. Not only excited with the first snow here but also i'm glad that i survived the damn cold temperature! And when the whether change, automatically the period is also changing. Yang paling terasa is waktu nak solat. Since masa winter siangnya pendek and malamnya panjang, so gap between every solat yang wajib kita buat juga bertambah singkat.


And now, we are approaching spring. I'm so excited!!! Dah lama xrasa matahari yang betul-betul..matahari yang xmenipu! What  i mean is, during winter even the sun is there but you still could fell the cold breeze right in front of your nose (sbb sejuk tahap nak tercabut hidung!) Tapi sekarang dah better sket kot sbb dah xpayah pakai baju tebal2 dah.


Well actually what i'm trying to say is..sekarang nih tengah peralihan musim and waktu sembahyang pun xconstant. Masa mula2 tengok jadual waktu sembahyang dulu terbeliak biji mata tengok jadual tu.Well untuk orang yang jarang2 nak bangun pagi like me, subuh as early as 4 pm and end approximately at 5.30 is quite a big deal! At first tu kelam kabut jugak la nak bangun awal. Terfikir jugak boleh ke aku survive sepanjang bulan ni bangun subuh awal....(sgt awal kot!)


But alhamdulillah..bila kita dah setkan niat betul-betul insyaAllah kita akan bole go through anything. Tak sangka berjaya jugak mengharungi bulan ni dengan i would say quite impressive...yela atlis bole jugak la bangun awal. Ingatkan matila aku sepanjang bulan nih xbole bangun awal  pagi.


So the conclusion is, jgn mudah buruk sangka dengan diri sendiri. There is nothing impossible in life..even untuk bangun awal subuh.. <3

Kopi vs Teh

Sangat tepu lepas baca anatomy =.=
Nak tido xngantok pulak coz dah minum bergelen-gelen nescafe td...i'm totaly addicted to caffein.
Sometimes i wonder why i'm so addicted to it...perhaps because of the aroma??
But atcually xreti sgt pon nak bezakan byk2 jenis caffeinated drinks ni..
So i made a few readings regarding caffeine (thanks to mr.google)..

•  Caffeine was isolated from coffee in 1820 by a German chemist,Friedlieb Ferdinand Runge, and in 1821 by French chemists working independently; namely, by Robiquet and by Pelletier and Caventou.
• In humans, caffeine acts as a central nervous system (CNS) stimulant, temporarily warding off drowsiness and restoring alertness *no wonder la xleh tido ag although da pukul 1 lebih*
• Caffeine is the world's most widely consumed psychoactive substance but, unlike many other psychoactive substances, is legal and unregulated in nearly all jurisdictions
• Caffeine has diuretics properties when administered in sufficient doses to subjects who do not have a tolerance for it. Regular users, however, develop a strong tolerance to this effect, and studies have generally failed to support the common notion that ordinary consumption of caffeinated beverages contributes significantly to dehydration

~panjang pulak artikel tu...

Okeh..ni from another site pulak..

the amount of caffeine in an 8oz cup of various teas and coffee:

• Coffee: 100 mg
• Black Tea: 40 to 50 mg
• Oolong Tea: 25 to 35 mg
• Green Tea: 20 to 30 mg

Well, green tea seems to be the best option if you are looking for a healthy drink but personally i dont really like the taste. Kat umah pon xpernah beli teh nih..pernah minum sekali je. 

      

Whatever pon, kalau diberi pilihan untk pilih kopi atau teh aku still akan pilih kopi sebab kopi paling sedap! ~bile nak bole tido ni~

                      

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GEMUK

so thats the tittle for today.."gemuk"

sometimes i simply just dont understand why people keep worrying about being so called fat person. *sigh*

i had a lot of friends who keep worrying about being fat and gaining weight...i think thats what normal teenage girl would think..not to mention only here but also my friends in malaysia..

but why are people care so  much about being fat???why??why??

i think sometimes you should just eat what you want and forget about the weighing scale for a moment..

im da kind of person yg hanya kenyang bila jumpa nasi..so sue me for being a typical asian and more specifically malay girl who grows up with nasi everyday kat rumah..

i just love rice so much..please friends dont be afraid of food..you'll be fine as long as you did  control the amount and do exercise..well even me sometimes terfikir jugak about gaining weight ni tapi xdela smpai control sgt makan sampai memudaratkan diri..haha..kenapa?because i love myself..i cant stand people who starved themselves in order to look good (luckily never found such person)...well this is just my personal opinion..no offense okay! <3

     

niat

Dua tiga hari yang lepas ada kelas ethics n communication. Punya la kalut nak g kelas sbb klas b4 tuh abis lambat. So bila da smpai 2 apa g..mula la plih port yg kurasakan plg best tuk duduk. So the lecturer pn masuk la..alamak! lecturerku sgt berumur rupanya. Tp kira ok la sbb org ckp warga emas nih byk experience. masuk2 tuh, dia suh ktorg explain sal health care system kt negara masing2. Mcm boring kan...zzzzzzzzzzzzz

Then tbe2 dia tnya, "what is da main cast of a doctor?"
Semua org pn cakap la sume jawapan2 standard yang selalu kte dgr like :
1) to treat the patient
2) to listen to the patient's problem
3) to emphasize...n da list go on

But according to him, da most important thing is actually " to help people".
Btoi jugk pe yg doc. tu ckp..kenapa nak jadi doktor? Sbb nak tolong orang. Keje jadi doktor sebenarnya kerja nak TOLONG orang!

New Semester

I thought i just came here yesterday but its just my illusion. The reality is i'd been here for about 5 months already. New semester had just began today but here i am...doing nothing but blogging. 

(xde mood nak study pass baca biology).

This past few days were really meaningful...well at least for me. Yesterday I made nasi kerabu. One of the dishes that I miss the most! Sumpah balik ni nak makan banyak2 nasi kerabu. Finally tercapai gak hasrat nak buat nasi kerabu kat bumi Olomouc tercinta nih (poyo je).

Although this is not the real one that I made but they are still called the same right???

On the same day some of my best friends come to visit me here. Their presence really made my day. Ape lg..jamu makan nasi kerabu la diorang tu sumer.

Kalau ada peluang memang nak buat ag sekali la nasi kerabu tu. This time i'll make a better version of nasi kerabu. (meroyan nak makan nasi kerabu yg kat umah!).

Then batch kitorang buat bbq. OMG! bbq time winter..nasib xde yang tbe2 jadi ais time makan ayam. Cuaca terbaik sejuk. Tu la..sape suh pandai sangat buat bbq time nih..balik2 bilik trus nak demam sbb lama sgt duk luar. Bajet ironlady sangat la pakai baju nipis je kuar rumah. Pastu ada senior 2nd year buat makan2. Student2 kat sini memang terbaik la kalau bab2 makan2 nih sebab ada je yang pandai gle masak. Xtipu!

Then hari nih, ktorang gi makan ramai2 sempena kawan ktorang yang da nak balik Prague dah. Makan ape?? Makan pizza beb! nak termuntah da makan benda tu hari ni. Promise that I wont be eating any pizza after this (at least for this month). Kalau da perut Melayu tu memang Melayu jugak la. Xley nak ubah dah. Pizza is not and I think never gonna be my favourite food. 

Lepas tu malam tadi ada kind of meeting jap with some of my friends. And guess what?? Rezeki datang bergolek sbb ada orang buat laksa! Mana nak jumpa laksa kat bumi Olomouc nih. So dikesempatan yang ada tu, i ate the laksa! Really love it! (walaupun perut da xde space da)

There goes my 1st day of new semester here. Makan, makan dan makan lagi. 

Study??? Today I only got anatomy lecture and supposedly ada klas biophysics. Tp macam biasa la...1st day kan...

'sakit rumah'

waaaaaaaa..lama gle xbuat entri baru..asyik dok bace blog org je..huhu
atcually blogging ni best bila kte ada idea n sumtim yang nak disampaikan..lau xde idea cmni la jadinya..
merapu bnda tah pape..

bukan pe..hari ni rasa agak tension nak menghafal segala benda yang ada lam buku chemistry 2..
tu la..sape suh xstudy betul2..kan da kena repeat untuk ke 3rd time..
(sabow je la hati ye)...

hari ni sangat2 rindukan umah..of cos la rindu sebab sume adik-bradik da ada kat umah da kot..tu la sape suh mai study jauh2 nih..kan da 'sakit rumah' (ayat cam xbersyukur lak..)
tp btol la..bila duk jauh2 nih, perasaan rindu kat family mesti lagi kuat n kte akan belajar untuk appreciate people more..cewahhh



miss my umi, my abah, my little farha, n all other people...MALAYSIA wait for me until July!!!


p/s: rindu time kena marah masa mengaji..sampai nak nangis kena marah sebab slalu baca salah..wish He always bless my family..wherever they are right now

wahai diri...

wahai diriku...

• sila jaga hatimu dengan ingat Allah selalu..
• sila berbahagia dan bersyukur dengan rezeki yang Allah dah bagi..
• sila banyakkan bersabar..*control your anger*
• sila  rajin-rajin stadi chemistry!!!!  (nak kena repeat paper lagi ke????)

atuk

"Dan Kami pasti akan Menguji kamu dengan sedikit ketakutan, kelaparan, kekurangan harta, jiwa, dan buah-buahan. Dan sampaikanlah kabar gembira kepada orang-orang yang sabar, (yaitu) orang-orang yang apabila ditimpa musibah, meraka berkata 'innalillahi wa inna ilaihi raji'un (sesungguhnya kami milik Allah dan kepada-Nya-lah kami kembali)"   surah Al-Baqarah:155-156

Semalam(15 Jan 2011) ada orang share ayat ni dengan aku sebab nak bagi aku semangat balik lepas apa yang jadi. So, apa yang jadi?? Well, semalam Allah dah ambik balik pinjaman yang dia bagi  kat aku selama 2 dekad ni. Semalam atuk meninggal. Innalillahi wa inna ilaihi raji'un. Masa mula-mula tahu berita tu rasa  sangat-sangat down.

But luckily i had such great friends, baik kat Malaysia or here yang tak putus-putus bagi semangat kat aq balik. Rasa terharu bila ada yang datang peluk and bagi kata-kata semangat. Rasa macam bukan aku sorang-sorang je yang sedih bila tahu berita tu. Thanks korang. Jasa korang hanya Allah je yang dapat balasnya.

Masa tengah-tangah sedih tu, ada sorang kawan pesan  "zira, nak sedih boleh tapi jangan sedih lama-lama sangat. Doa banyak-banyak sebab yang akan menghubungkan zira dengan atuk is doa tu and bukan tangisan kita"

Thanks lagi sekali korang. You all are such great friends to me. To my atuk, semoga Allah mencucuri rahmat ke atas rohnya, dipermudahkan hisab dan ditempatkan dikalangan rang-orang yang beriman.Amin.


Wahai hati sila bersabar dan tabah!!

another dugaan...

Today i got a message from my sister. She said "please call home when ue are free, ur grandpa's health is getting worse". I was so shocked at that time. I'm not sure weather i'd be able to hear the bad new yet (i already knew it is bad since he used to be ill for a long time). But then i still call home. I want to know the real story. O God please give me strength. I'm here far away from my family.

I called home and as i expected, my grandpa is getting worse.He's unconscious right now. I cried cried and cried again until i get tired.

But somehow i feel relieved. I had such great friends here who treat me like their own family. We make a sitting and together we read Yasin  for my grandpa. 

Friends, ue all are so great. I don't know if i can ever repay all your kindness to me. All praise to Allah The Mighty because He grant me with such great friends here.

I wish i could be by my grandpa side right now but we all know that its impossible for me to go back home right now (with the undone exam papers, ticket, and distance). But one of my lovely friends told me,
"zira, sebaik-baik penjaga kita semua ialah Allah so doa kt Allah semoga Dia dapat jaga atuk dengan sebaik-baiknya"

O Allah, give me strength to face all the obstacles in this world. Please ease my path Allah. Amin.