For you.

Specially dedicated to me myself...

Azira...
Why you so weak?
Tak pass exam sket tapi nangis bagai nak
banjir faculty. Luckily no people there >.<
Poor your umi and abah.
You are almost 21 years old yet being so manja.
Abah sampai suruh letak phone sebab nangis teruk sangat.
Told me to calm myself first and repeatedly said that
its okay that i failed this time, i can try again next time.

Oh abah..if only you know what i feel.
I'm so scared that the same thing happened last year
will happen again this year.
I dont want to break your heart and make
you and umi worry about me again.
Plus, I don't know if im strong enough to face it the second time.

Dear Azira...
You know its not the end of the world yet
so stop grieving over something that had happened.
Something you cannot change.
All you can do is to accept the fact that you fail today!

Just take a deep breath, empty all the negative thought
and start a new chapter.
There's a lot more challenging stuff waiting for you in future.
You can face this Azira.
You have been through a lot before.
This little failure, i'm sure you can face it.
Please be strong!
Nak balik ke tak?
Kalau nak balik, stop grieving and start studying!

Masalah?!

There's one moment in life when you want to stop,
have a break from this busy-hectic-miserable life
and forget everything.

But to think again, sampai bila nak run away every
time kena face problem kan.
Problem in life ni macam garam dalam kari.
If tak tambah garam mesti jadi tawar je kari tu.
Orang kata penambah perasa, emmmm..maybe
more to pelengkap rasa kari tu sendiri kot.

Even sebenarnya kita tau je effect garam tu kat badan
in case of excessive consumption, tapi kita still consume garam tu.
Sebab kalau tak tambah memang tak akan menjadi la kari kita tadi
*sembang resipi masakan pulak =.='*

What i'm trying to express is, be brave to face the problem girl!
He Won't test you with something you can't bear because
Dia adalah Yang Maha Mengetahui.
Bila kita yakin dengan sifat Allah yang satu ni,
kita tak akan risau dah macam mana nak face any problem in life.
Sebab kita tahu yang Allah Tahu setakat mana threshold kita
untuk face the problem.

i wish everything will go on easy for me,

but somehow i realize that

life without problems is a meaningless one.

note 1: risau takut tak lepas exam isnin ni sebenarnya T_T

note 2: to live under people's expectation is such a  burdensome.

Pre-exam Syndrom

Rasanya sepanjang duk sini nak dekat 2 tahun ni,
tiap kali nak exam mesti dapat sakit yang satu ni--> HEADACHE.
Dulu2 masa nak SPM xde pun develop penyakit ni.
Eh ada..tapi tak seteruk sekarang kot.

Bukak buku lama sikit mula la kepala berdenyut-denyut loya nak muntah. T_T
Bila kepala buat hal mula la cari alternatif lain untuk hilangkan sakit tu.
Antara yang selalu buat is tido or main game.
Bila dah start buat benda lagha2 ni, mula la study x abes..
then bila tinggal 2 3 hari nak exam mula la gelabah.
(Lagi gelabah dari nak jumpa bakal mertua tau #eh.)
Mana nak belek semua buku, tengok balik lecture notes,
hafal segala jenis neurons and pathway.
Sooooooo many to learn.

So my dear self..please be nice to me.
Jangan nak ngada2 sangat dekat  nak exam ni.
I need to study T_T

Cepat abes exam cepat la kamu boleh balik.
Sila bertahan.

Great May

Its 1st of May and believe me its gonna be a hectic month ever. T___T
Got  2 exam this month, few tests and credits to fulfill.
Tapi hari-hari buat macam orang tak sedar diri nak exam.
Tengok drama, fb, layan youtube..nice kan T___T
Paling best bila time2 mcm ni la semua benda yang melaghakan,
semua tu la yang nak di buat.
Now im having sudden desire to go to shopping.
Its summer guys. We need new clothes for this new season...errr rite?

Since its May, meaning i still have approximately 2 months
before summer holiday start...cakap sekarang sape yang tak suka cuti lama-lama!
*senyum sampai ke telinga*
I'm the most happiest person when it comes to holidays.
Summer holidays means no class.
No class means no test.
No test means no books.
No books means kau-boleh-berjimba-24/7-dengan-senang-hatinya.
(ehemsss jgn ikut perangai buruk ni..sepatutnya niat kita study is to get His Blessing..tu baru betul *dush!!!)

But the most important thing is, summer holiday means Malaysia!!!
Probably this year gonna be the last year boleh sambut raya puasa
kat rumah..next year belum tentu lagi macam mana.
Listening to the stories from the third year students already gives me goosebumps
on how "great" third year syllabus gonna treat you.
(we only can pray for the best je la kan)

So guys..happy-exam-dulu-baru-fikir-tiket-balik time!!

note 1 : i really love summer ^_^